Well it’s been a long time since I have been here and it kind of feels like coming back to a long lost friend!
Working full time has taken allot out of me and sometimes I wonder how long I will be able to keep up the pace that I am going at right now. I just changed jobs again, my last job was so stressful that I just had to leave. The environment, the people….it was just a really difficult place to work and I finally after 10 months of working there just couldn’t do it anymore. When your job is something that you dread every day it really is time to change jobs because it effects everything in your life. It makes you more tired, always on edge and robs you of joy. I have learnt that the older I get I must do things that bring me joy not rob me of it. So I am now on a Journey to JOY!
Learning to live in constant Joy is definitely hard for me since my natural tendancy is to be negative and look for things to complain about. The verses in James 1 reminds me though that even in difficult circumstances that joy is possible but it must be a decision or an act of my will. So with my whole being I am seeking JOY, to live constantly with a positive attitude and the mind of Christ. I can only change me, I cannot control others or how they treat me, I can’t even control my kids and the decisions that they might make. The stuff I am struggling with now is learning to say no to things that rob me of joy because I feel obligated to stay in the difficult circumstance like my job. Where is that line between seeking JOY in EVERY circumstance and walking away when things just suck the life out of you. I struggle with being TOO responsible sometimes, does anyone else feel this way? I have always been the responsbile one, the person that you could count on no matter what to get the job done without counting the personal cost to me or my family. Sometimes being responsible is a bad thing because guilt is my constant companion if I do not fufill all the obligations I agreed to do or say no to someones request of me. At this point in my life I feel like I am not looking after myself properly because of my need to be responsible. Am I the only one who feels this way?
So here is my list of things that bring me JOY today;
- my teenagers – without a doubt they are the most wonderful Adults in training and I am so blessed that God gave them to me. Is it hard raising teenagers? YES but I would not trade it for anything in the world.
- my dogs – they never talk back need I say more?
- my puppies – my yorkie had 3 beautiful puppies and they are just the most beautiful things in the world right now.
- camping – I love camping, I love being out somewhere new exploring and the beauty God has created. I could live in my camper I love it so much.
- my new job – it’s so much fun just trying out a whole bunch of different places.
Well those are my thoughts for today….I know not allot of people come here to read my blog anymore but if you do happen to stop by please take a minute to leave a comment and say HI.