Well I never have been big with new years resolutions but I do set goals for myself every year of things I would like to accomplish, but with the new year approaching I find myself really confused and scattered. I accomplished huge goals this year with making the CD and giving up coke and getting into a healthier pattern. This year has been filled with lots of highs and lows, but mostly highs getting to fulfill a lifelong dream in making my CD…. but now I don’t know what to set as new goals?
I feel like I don’t contribute much anymore to the blogging world and want to get better at that with more encouraging posts and learning to become a better writer. I feel like I have so many things that I need to do in the new year but none of them will be fun or exciting so I hesitate in even making a plan because I dread change. Is anyone else feeling this way or is it just me!
I know that one of my goals this year is to drop 100 pounds but that is going to be a long hard struggle. I need something exciting and challenging to balance this out. Would you pray about this with me? To top all of this off I have been struggling the last few weeks with a really bad bought with depression. This has been one of the worse low’s I have experienced in a long time and I know that allot of it is related to the lack of sunshine for the last 6 weeks (which is very unlike Saskatchewan). The other part of it is just learning to surrender what I feel like my calling is to God even if that means I will never get to live out what I feel my calling is. Some of it is learning to surrender and the other part is allowing God to reshape the calling into something other than what my plan was. I keep saying to myself that things will be better tomorrow but the struggle has been a long hard one, the light at the end of the tunnel has been very dim. I just shut down socially when this happens, I don’t want anyone around me, I don’t want anyone to know that I am struggling and more than that I feel alone even in a room full of people who I know love me deeply. I can cry at the drop of a hat and anyone who knows me knows that I HATE crying so when I say I am glad I am on my way out of this black hole is an understatement.
On the up side Barry and I were able to buy a truck over the weekend and my man is a very happy camper to say the least. He has wanted a truck for a long time and we were finally able to get one for him, and a nice one too. It’s a 2004 GMC Sierra and I am fond of the color more than anything else(leave it to a woman to pick a truck for the color alone hey?).
To top that off my hubby got a GPS system from my Dad for Christmas which he is over the moon about. We got lots of great presents but this one has put a huge smile on my hubby’s face (Thanks Dad!). We also celebrated our 16th anniversary on Friday and my hubby came home with 4 dozen pink & red roses. I love roses so the fact that he remembered our anniversary before he went to work and brought home flowers after work really made my day. If you want to see some pictures of our family’s Christmas please go to this Album
Our family trip to Edmonton went well, (Barry’s family lives out there)we found a housesitter 2 days before we were suppose to leave so that was a little tense for awhile but I guess those are the things I have to deal with when I have so many animals. It frustrates Barry but I feel that the struggle is worth it especially when you have great dogs like I have :o)) My friend Darla also came to look in on my dogs to let them out when our housesitter was not able to be around and considering the fact that she doesn’t like dogs as much as me, it must mean she likes me allot so I am grateful for such a good friend! Thanks Darla! To see some pictures from our trip to see Barry’s Family please visit this Album. There are pictures in this album from last Christmas too so make sure you got to the back end of this album.
Well that is my little update! I hope that all of you have a very Happy New Year filled with many rich blessings that only God can provide!
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