Live Well Wednesday

So many days times I wish I could be inspirational, and gain some new insight into how to master and gain self control. I found myself wondering this week what it would feel like not to carry this extra weight? Maybe if I could imagine it, it wouldn’t seem like such a far fetched idea! I kept thinking would I be pain free? My doctor tells me no but I keep imagining that I would be able to do so much more without so much pain. I can’t remember a day when pain was not my constant companion! I’m not saying that to gain sympathy, it’s just my thoughts of late. I don’t like my body, I don’t think I ever have, but I wonder what it would be like to be ok with this body, to be satisfied with how it looks! Would it ever be enough? I mean, I am a perfectionist so would it ever be enough? I looked back of some pictures of me in high school and I thought “why did I think I was fat then” when I really did looked pretty good? Who convinced me even then that I was fat? Often my perceptions are off, especially about myself!The last 10 years I have found myself really focused on inner beauty, developing character that would be pleasing to God but lately I am finding that the pendulum is shifting and I am caring more and more how I look for my age! There has to be some kind of balance right? For me though, what all this boils down to is one issue in the center of all these questions and it’s SELF CONTROL. Self control affects way more than just my body fat, it affects my inner beauty too. Self control and learning to let God have control in every area of my life has always been a challenge but I am finding as I surrender my will to His He is replacing my hunger for food for a hunger to be more like Him. My desire for coke zero is being replaced with a desire for the living water. He is healing something in me that I didn’t know was broken until I saw it looming in front of me like a chasm that could not be bridged. As I faced it and cried out for help, I began to see Him filling in the chasm with unending mounts of love and care, like a bulldozer shoving dirt into an empty pit until it was filled to over flowing. Now all I need to do is take the steps onto this mount of Jesus love for me and walk into victory! Yes it’s a little scary sometimes because I keep expecting the ground to give way beneath my feet but this is the promise I am holding fast to today!

And I am certain that God, who began the good work within you, will continue his work until it is finally finished on the day when Christ Jesus returns.Phil 1:6

Be encouraged ladies, He is not even close to being done with us yet!

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10 thoughts on “Live Well Wednesday

  1. Hi Crystal-I really enjoyed your post. Most of us are very unhappy with our bodies because of all these magazines out there with models on them that are anorexic. Let’s look at ourselves as God looks at us. He truly sees us as His beautiful creation. He looks at our hearts, not at our bodies. I am also struggling with it. I am sorry for your physical pain. AS I started to feel better about myself-through Jesus’ help-I began stretching, doing a little walking-5 minutes a day-and I am seeing some results just from that-maybe a 1/4 pound a week. Come visit me-I posted some water intake cards and meal cards and a great smoothie recipe. Blessings, Rose

  2. God does reveal things to us little by little as He continues His work in our lives. As you begin to understand them you can make changes step by step. So, yes, be encouraged!

    Tammy ~@~

  3. Crystal, thanks for sharing your heart. I think you hit the key when you said “the way I look”. We have to start wanting to change, not for the way we look but for the way we feel. Losing weight to live healthy lives not to look “good”. That is a world view. I suffer from the same feelings but I’m trying to change the way I think. I need to lose the weight and incorporate healthy habits because it is wise.
    Have a good week!

  4. I like the idea of letting God have control in every area. He says, “Seek ye FIRST ths kingdom of God, and his righteousness then all these things will be added to you.”

    Perception can be a nasty thing.

  5. Currently I am doing the Bible Study Living Beyond Yourself by Beth Moore. It amazes me how , when we meet each week, each of the ladies can share how they have come face to face with the particular fruit we have been studying. Sometimes it can feel discouraging that we have these tests and fail. Last week I encouraged the ladies to not feel down when these things happen. Firstly, because for the first time they are seeing how God is taking an active part in their lives by making them deal with the issues of love, joy, peace etc. Adn secondly be excited when He reveals how far off we are because it means He wants to perfect us and He will perfect that which concerns us. So Self Control is huge with me too, but God is still perfecting that which concerns me and some day soon that fruit will manifest itself in me when the time is ripe!!
    Thanks for your post

  6. Great post. I am so glad God is not done with me yet. I am so glad He goes it slow. Conforming us to His image is a step by step process and what an adventure it is! Keep your eyes on Him and you cannot go wrong! Keep it up!
    Much love,

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