I have been wrestling with this post for a long time now, mostly because I know it’s going to be a doozy so please bear with me. There has been a battle going on for my mind for quite a while now and it’s really hard to share it because not all of it is clear to me yet but I really feel strongly that someone out there may be struggling with the same thing so I need to share it!
2. Rebellion is a sin. In my rebellion I always did things my own way…..I drove fast, had a major case of road rage almost all the time when I was driving. I hid things from Barry so that he would not know I spent money on certain things, I would get mad when my husband would ask something simple of me like do a favor for him. I hate to tell you this ladies but manipulating things to get your way is deep seeded rebellion and it is not ok with God.
Yesterday I went shopping with a friend of mine and decided I was going to be upfront with Barry and talk to him about wanting to get some clothes. His immediate reaction was to say “NO, we just can’t afford it”. I wanted to argue with him so badly cause I wanted some new clothes but I decided that I would abide by my hubby’s wishes and do what he asked of me which was not to buy any clothes. It was so hard cause we went to my favorite store and there were major deals ladies, like 75% off summer stock. Let me just say I wrestled with my humanness in wanting to phone my hubby and manipulate things to get my way but I didn’t and I walked away from my favorite store with nothing. Later, after we left the store he phoned me to tell me that he changed his mind and that I should buy something nice for myself! Boy did that feel good, and I knew that God had done something major in me(plus I got a great deal on some new shoes & a purse, who hoooo). That is my story …. I am getting a major overhaul and God has taken something that was so ugly and turned it into something He could use. Now I am not telling you this to brag but I am telling you this so you can see what He can do if we let Him!
3. Pride is the root of all selfishness! Here is a few key phrases I hear allot……I deserve it, It’s my time, When can I be happy? I have used those phrases ….. but I am being convicted of pride big time in my life, like when I get irritated with someone because they don’t discipline their kids like I think they should, or when I get mad at someone driving in traffic…..when my husband doesn’t live up to my expectations, when I compare myself to others and think “man, I’m not so bad, look at so & so, I am glad I am not like them!” Where is your focus? When you think like this your shifting the blame or the focus to someone else to make yourself look better and that will rob you of compassion and love. It’s easy to love our friends but what about those people who are difficult to love? Are you ready for a little bit of truth? You know the saying, “the truth will set you free” well here it goes, straight from the bible.
Luke 6:7-30(msg)“To you who are ready for the truth, I say this: Love your enemies. Let them bring out the best in you, not the worst. When someone gives you a hard time, respond with the energies of prayer for that person. If someone slaps you in the face, stand there and take it. If someone grabs your shirt, gift wrap your best coat and make a present of it. If someone takes unfair advantage of you, use the occasion to practice the servant life. No more tit-for-tat stuff. Live generously.
31-34“Here is a simple rule of thumb for behavior: Ask yourself what you want people to do for you; then grab the initiative and do it for them! If you only love the lovable, do you expect a pat on the back? Run-of-the-mill sinners do that. If you only help those who help you, do you expect a medal? Garden-variety sinners do that. If you only give for what you hope to get out of it, do you think that’s charity? The stingiest of pawnbrokers does that.
35-36“I tell you, love your enemies. Help and give without expecting a return. You’ll never—I promise—regret it. Live out this God-created identity the way our Father lives toward us, generously and graciously, even when we’re at our worst.”
Those are some really powerful verses, can I get an AMEN?
My mentor said this today. When the Holy Spirit lives in your life it’s like a cup of water that is full, but sin is like someone dumping some water out of that full glass, and if you don’t keep a short record with God of sin and continually ask to be refilled with the Holy Spirit before you know it your cup is empty and your life feels like it’s falling apart and your life feels out of control. You may think you are ok for a short period of time but you will always feel like something is missing & you need that water to come fill you up. Remember these verses from Psalms 23?
5 You prepare a table before me
in the presence of my enemies.
You anoint my head with oil;
my cup overflows.
6 Surely goodness and love will follow me
all the days of my life,
and I will dwell in the house of the LORD
I truly can say now that I know what that feels like. God wakes me up before my alarm every morning gently whispering “Crystal come talk with me, I need to meet with you”! It’s so overwhelming because there is a Holy God who really wants to talk with me! I am feeling full, both emotionally and physically and I truly can say I love my life, I am so blessed! God has been revealing truth to me in my dreams and brought people into my life that can help me discern my dreams. I am in love folks, big time, His name is Jesus and HE KNOWS MY NAME!
I don’t know who this message was meant for but feel free to email(email@example.com) me if you don’t feel comfortable leaving a comment and let me know. I want you to know that God cares about what you are going through and doesn’t want you to go through it alone! Again let me just say this ‘God is in Control’ people He really is! I am so glad cause I was messing up my life big time!