We confess our little faults to persuade people that we have no large ones.
Do you ever get the sneaking suspision that someone will eventually figure you out and when they do, they won’t like you! That is how I have been feeling lately…..there are flaws in my character that someone has noticed in me and talked to me about….and in some ways I’m relieved but……. it also requires something of me…..
I’ve been found out! There is no hiding anymore…..Someone actually took the time to notice…..to speak the truth……and boy did it hurt…..it took me some time to trust their motives……I still am in pain…….but I realized today that this is something I need to walk through. My integrity is in question, my character is under scrutiny…….Do I step up and work on the deep dark issues or do I continue in my self absorbed, oblivious world and hope no one else notices that I am deeply flawed?
But does it matter if not one other person notices this……God noticed! He has been revealing to me that this flaw is something He wants to heal in me…..I got the thorn through no fault of my own, but I it was my fault to let it heal over instead of pulling it out. I hid it under layers and layers of skin, it was so deeply imbedded so it was painful to remove it…….but now the healing can begin……..
Now the trick will be to remember not to keep picking at the scab and let it heal!